I'm NEVER alone

Ok y'all here is the game plan. I'm going to try my very hardest to blog ONCE a week, maybe twice... second blog being something like "10 new things I love this Sunday"

I'm going to start off with

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PRINCESS BONNIE KAYTE THRASHER

WHO turned 3 today!!!

Mommy Loves you sweet girl!!!!

Ok so I wanted to post this blog a lot sooner, but couldn't ever get around to it till now.

I started blogging this blog in my head (make sense?)

on Monday, on my way home from work, ehh but it was Monday (you know how those days go)

and on my way home I listened to a song on repeat that made my emotional Monday bring crazy amounts of tears I didn't even know I still had...you know, being that a couple weeks ago

I threw myself so many PPP's (pitiful pitty parties)!!

Anyways back to Bonnie Kayte...

Wow, I am one blessed momma!

It seems just like yesterday she was turnin 2!

Better yet I still remember being so overwhelmed with planning her 1st Birthday!

I wanted everything to be perfect for my angel bugs party, I was a serious mess!!

Thanks to PARENTS magazine that just so happened to have in BIG BOLD print across the front page,

"DON'T OVER DO YOUR CHILD'S 1ST BIRTHDAY PARTY,

THEY WON'T REMEMBER ANY OF IT"

(Here's your sign)

I did a lot of rethinking and cooled it on all the ridiculous plans I had,

Sooooo instead of a 3 tier cake, I made 2 dozen cupcakes!! haha.

But serious.

back on track.....

I couldn't imagine my life without my sweet little girl! A while back I read from start to finish the monthly blogs I use to do about Bonnie Kayte all the way up until she turned 2, and yes i cried like a baby. The first blog I ever did really got to me, it was the day she turned 1 month old, just reading it, it was like I could close my eyes and remember exactly what I was wearing, exactly what she was wearing, exactly what the house smelled like. Crazzy! Gives me goosebumps!

Bonnie Kayte is just the most amazing gift I have ever been blessed with.

Never a dull moment with her, ever!!

Never a time the words "Mommy I will always love you" get old,

nor do those words ever fail to make my heart smile. Literally.

I do not know what I'd do with out my little sidekick.

||Pause for a second.

I recently started working at a new dental office (yay).

and I work with this lady and she lost her daughter last Christmas Eve.

Her daughter was 9.

For the past 3 weeking I've seen this strong amazing lady have her

good days, her okay days, and her bad days.

She loves to talk about her daughter, she says she talks about her because she never wants to forget her.

Just think about this for a minute...

I can't help but try to imagine myself in her shoes,

I literally feel that you would have to shoot me dead if anything ever happen to Bonnie.

I tend to question myself a lot.

Examples:

HOW does she do it??

HOW does she come to work everyday with a smile on her face,

even on days she misses her sweet baby she lost?

HOW does she smile throu times of telling us stories of her little girl with tears rolling down her cheeks

(as well as ours)??

HOW on earth does she do it??

***

*Hold close to the ones you love*

*Smile more than you grumble*

*Don't ever leave or go to bed angry at someone*

***

> ok now push PLAY

Bonnie Kayte and I have this mommy-daughter thing we do often, and that is,

We pick our "favorite song", sometimes we have the same favorite song for weeks at a time until a new good enough song comes along to take its place.

Her love for music rates about where mine does and she's only 3! I love it!!

Anyhow, once we have our favorite song picked out, I put it on repeat, turn it up really loud, and we sing it at the top of our lungs to wherever our destination might be. Very few things cause for us turn the music down.

& This can be ANY song, country, christian, etc.

However, ever since she turned 2 (last September) our all time mommy-bonnie song had been

"Never Grown Up" by Taylor Swift. (still love that song)

BUT this past Monday, the lady I work with (that I mentioned earlier ) told me to listen to a song. She stated that it's her alarm, she wakes up to it every morning, and she lets it play throu till the very-end, sometimes even twice before she gets out of bed.... and if you know me, you know I'm always up for hearing a new song.

It starts playing and I hear just a few lyrics and then the hair on my arms stood up and it literally gave me chills, maybe it was just the timing and the mood that was set at the time.

(we had just got done talking about her daughter)

"May the angels protect you

Trouble neglect you

and heaven except you when it's time to go home

May you always have plenty

Your glass never empty....."

-Then it hit me!

This is HOW she does it!

This is HOW she is able to come to work everyday with a smile on her face.

This is HOW she is able to smile throu all the hurt,

she is reminded daily, every morning, the love our Lord has for each and every one of us,

not just when we hurt, but throu our "good" days, our "okay" days, and our bad days.

We are never alone.

*It's an over all GREAT song. Lyrics, music, etc. NOT to mention Lady A sings it!*

I immediately buy the on iTunes, and this was Monday mind you, and we had ten minutes before it was time to leave for the day. As soon as I get into my car I plug my phone in and put the song on repeat, listened to it all the way back to Plainview.

Picked Bonnie Kayte up and I was so excited and anxious for her to listen...

So I turned it up and she immediately caught on to the song and its message.

I only say that because she had one arm in the air, her eyes were closed,

saying "thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus",

Call me crazy BUT she seriously has mini worship sessions in my back seat!

(I see it all throu my rear view mirror, I don't even think since the day I had her that my rear view mirror has ever been focused on anything BUT her)

It's great, I love it!!

....so she got the message the song delivers, and I hear (over the music)

"Mommy, I like this song....its your favorite??"

"Yes Bon it is!!"

"this is our favorite song, right mom"

I of course agreed. ;)

I'm sure your thinking..

okay?? what the song she keeps talking about and what message???

I'm not going to say any more than,

this song is a great reminder for all of us, to know know we are NEVER alone,

throu any circumstance in life.

We all just like in any relationship, need little reminders that we are NOT alone.

Or is that just me??

Weather it be a mother-daughter relationship,

best friend relationship,

daddy-daughter relationship,

or most important 

our relationship with the Lord.

Being that we are ONLY human...

we tend to fall into pitty party spells (guilty) and think

"no one is ever here for me, I'm all alone"

WRONG!!!

(crank this song any time you feel your alone, it will help! no doubt!)

I pray that my sweet Bonnie will always know & feel the love I have for her

and without a doubt in her mind know that I will always be by her side!

I will follow her, stay with her,

BUT above all I pray that she knows that Jesus loves her

and his love will follow her,

stay with her, and she will NEVER be alone.

*BE BLESSED* BE LOVED*

I hope this song blesses you as much as it does Bonnie and I.

remember. you're never alone. ;)

I posted the video and the lyrics below the video so that you can click play,
and while the song plays you can read along!

(lyrics)

May the angels protect you

Trouble neglect you

And heaven accept you when its time to go home

May you always have plenty

The glass never empty

Know in your belly

You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing

You find friends worth having

With every year passing

They mean more than gold

May you win but stay humble

Smile more than grumble

And know when you stumble

You're never alone

Chorus:

Never alone

Never alone

I'll be in every beat of your heart

When you face the unknown

Wherever you fly

This isn't goodbye

My love will follow you stay with you

Baby you're never alone

well

I have to be honest

As much as I want it

I'm not gonna promise that the cold winds won't blow

So when hard times have found you

And your fears surround you

Wrap my love around you

You're never alone

Chorus

May the angels protect you

Trouble neglect you

And heaven accept you when its time to go home

And when hard times have found you

And your fears surround you

Wrap my love around you

You're never alone

Chorus

My love will follow you stay with you

Baby you're never alone