to be known...

So the Lord said to Moses,

 “I will also do this thing that you have spoken; for you have found grace in My sight, 

and I know you by name.” -Exodus 33:17

This is the sweetest thing I have heard in a long time, if not ever. To know in all my impossibilities and heartaches that I have found grace in God’s sight, and even more... that HE KNOWS ME by name. I had to highlight the knows me part because when the world becomes overwhelming, and the struggles of life fall down upon me like an avalanche, the fact that God knows me by name reminds me of all the love He has for me, and all that is true in the world. It reminds me of all that really matters, and today I need to be reminded.

Every time I read this, I just weep because I see the love and kindness of my God and my heavenly Father pouring through the words above, and I need to know just how much He loves me. I don’t know why certain things happen in life, and I can’t see God’s plan or understand His way, but I know that He loves me and I know that He knows me, and that is enough. Much more than enough for me.

So, now as I get ready to head out on a journey today, I don’t know what lies ahead of me, but I thank God that before I go He has brought me to place similar to where He brought Moses. And I echo what Moses said after being overwhelmed by the circumstances around him, “Please, show me Your glory.” (v.18)

To see God’s glory is all I want in this moment, and it’s all that matters. 

And, maybe I am beginning to see a little bit of why God has brought me to this low point.

Finally, I love that God does not turn me away when I come to Him, but He answers my prayers and says, “I will make all My goodness pass before you, and I will proclaim the name of the Lord before you.” (v.19) I absolutely need God’s goodness to pass before me, and I need to be near Him. I love that when I cry out to Him, he doesn’t leave it up to me, but he picks me up and places me close to Him, and sets me firmly upon the rock that is His Son and my Savior. “And the Lord said, “Here is a place by Me, and you shall stand on the rock.” (v.20) I need Him, and I need to be firmly standing on the Rock that is Jesus Christ when the storms of life rage upon me.

After I have looked at the Word of God, wrote down what God is speaking to me, and meditated on Him, I realize that I have had God’s goodness all along, I realize that I have been placed close to my Father, and I realize that I am suddenly standing firmly on the Rock that is Jesus Christ. How faithful is my God. Thank you Jesus.

hello pretties, I know it has been sometime since my last blog, and this may seem a little random. 

BUT this, just like any other blog of mine, was so heavy on my heart and 

I had the thought "I'm so going to blog this" more than once, 

and so I just knew that one, two, maybe even three of my readers needed this reminder, just as I did! THANK YOU FOR READING!!

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10 THINGS I LOVE THIS SUNDAY 

1. Running. So good for my soul.

2. Scarfs. YES Please!

3. Proud to be an American! 

#GOVOTE!!! NOV. 6th

4. ".....and be nice to people."

and I repeat... "and be nice to people"

Don't be hateful or negative. please.

5. Oh to live in a Fantasy world. 

I'm such a girl.

6. I am just going to be completely honest. 

I really do need one of these.

7. Hands down. My new favorite movie!

8. I can not agree more!

Thank you to all my TRUE loving friends who have 

been here for me the past couple weeks. 

You are all so lovely!

9. I just can't get enough!

If I have every shared one of these moments with you.

I love you. ;)

10. lastly...this!

i love this.

Don't forget. He knows YOUR name!

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-WHAT 10 THINGS DO YOU LOVE THIS SUNDAY??

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HAPPY SUNDAY ALL!!
BE BLESSED. AND BE OH SO LOVED!!

XOXO

-malorie lucille

I hope this song blesses your heart as much as it does mine every time I play it. 

Press In

Well hello there!

I have a lot of things that I refer to as my "favorite", for example when listening to my iPod

on shuffle.... I don't know how many times I catch my self saying 

"i love this song, it's my favorite" 

all within the same car setting. 

It's silly.

Speaking of "favorite", I have an absolutely favorite thing to do, 

and that is to worship on Sunday morning with my

church family. 

Literally gives me a happy heart just thinking about it! 

The past two Sundays at church have been 

incredible, 

just getting so lost in worship and feeling the Lords presence 

and just simply dwelling in such a sweet moment.

It is so good to taste and see that the Lord is good.

 Sometimes it's just coming into a environment like so ^ 

and just feeling the goodness and grace of God on his people 

and just enjoying it, 

receiving it, 

and saying 'God, you are so good", 

the past two services mentioned, 

I very much so felt his goodness, and his sweet grace...and it was awesome!

I just have such a heart for us in this season, 

and I say "season" because life is "seasonal", 

different things come and go in "seasons",

the Lord is in "seasons". 

But we are really in a season and in a culture 

where we are surrounded with things that allow us to stay busy 

and even with things like Twitter and Facebook, 

those kinds of things, 

we can not even be completely in touch with reality very often 

if we don't want to be. 

I believe that a lot of you can agree with me on that one...

I have had days that I was on Twitter so much that I felt

that I was best friends with Kim, Khloe, & Kourtney Kardashian....

or on Pinterest for hours "Repinning"/"Liking" things for my future home, 

or my future fairy tale wedding that I long to have, 

and then a customer walks into the bank..

 and it's "Oh hey Malorie... back to reality!!" 

That's probably a silly

example, but the funny thing is...

 a lot of us can relate to some thing of that sort.

Now days we could just text and not even have to talk to people... 

(in some instances that would be nice, very nice, if my phone didn't receive calls.haha)

Some of us can even talk to a robot inside of our phone named Siri that can look up everything.

I mean it's just funny to me how our culture is, but you know what, as believers, we can NOT be

defined by our culture, outside of the four walls, we've got to stay connected to the Lord in reality.

And here is what I mean by that, 

that we can't just be so quick to download the next BIG app that is our "devotional"

with the Lord, but it's my heart that as believers, as people of God, 

we would press into his presence, 

just between us and him, 

and that no matter how busy things can be around us, 

that that would be our #1 thing.

I was talking to a friend some time back and he began to talk about Heaven.. and what it will be like.

In Revelation Chapter 2 it says, 

I know you and I know the things that make your heart beat... 

it's really a cool little scripture there, it goes on to say, 

I know the things that you are passionate about and I even know the things that you hate, 

... I know that you are doing things in my name and 

you're not even growing weary for my name sake. 

That to me sounds like somebody who is pretty healthy, 

if you're not growing weary for his name sake, 

you're running the race, 

you're spending time with him... 

things like that, 

but here's what it says at the end of that verse... it says 

"But I've got one thing against you,

that you've left your first love"

And I think that we fall and pray to this many times, 

in many areas of our lives, 

where we've allowed ourselves to be defined by the things outside of church,

not just outside of the four walls, 

but I'm talking about the culture of us being believers, 

that we've allowed ourselves to just become so busy that these kinds of

moments of getting lost in the goodness and grace of the Lord, 

are not very normal in our lives sometimes.

BUT.... I think they need to be, especially in our own time, just between us and the Father. 

If you've been walking in areas of anxiety, 

depression, 

feeling like you're overwhelmed with life, 

needing incredibly large answers from the Lord, 

I would bet to say or venture to say, 

you've got to press into him,

 get alone at your house and just silence everything else 

and lean into the Father. 

He's in pursuit of our hearts, 

ALL the time.

Let's be known as worshippers, Amen. 

Those who worship the Lord in spirit and in truth. 

That that would not be said of us, 

that we've left out first love, 

but that we are madly in love with our Father. 

He is so good.

I refer a lot of things in my life to music (but you already know that thou.)

So of course while blogging, there was one song that kept coming to me. 

The Heart of Worship. Some of you may know it.

(no picture, just sound, click play)

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When the music fades

And all is stripped away

And I simply come

Longing just to bring

Something that's of worth

That will bless your heart

I'll bring you more than a song

For a song in itself

Is not what you have required

You search much deeper within

Through the ways things appear

You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship

And it's all about You

It's All about You, Jesus

I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it

When it's all about you

It's all about You Jesus

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I pray God we make it about you again

Thank you for reminding us, 

that your presence is all we need,

when your presence comes it's like nothing else, 

we can hear your voice Lord and we know what you are saying to us, 

we feel near to you, 

Thank you for the beauty of your holiness, 

God like in Psalm 27 when it says, 

One thing that I seek 

and that I desire, is that I would dwell in the house of the Lord, 

to gaze upon the beauty of my God, 

Father I pray that we would desire that..

Every.single.day, 

Lord that you would break depression and anxiety off of the people reading this, 

I ask in the name of Jesus, 

that your presence would come and invade every heart, 

Thank you so much for loving us, 

Lord teach us and help us to do this in our homes and in our cars again, 

some of us are good at that but some of us need to learn and

 I pray that you teach us Lord..to press in, 

and to feel your presence, and to ask for your presence to fill our homes, 

May we be people who are after your heart God. 

Not what you can do. 

Not the answers that we need from you, 

but your presence Lord, 

to commune and to be in a relationship with you God. 

Thank you for reminding us to just quiet ourselves, and to worship you....

because you are good. 

Amen.

Be Blessed. Be Loved People!

-malorie lucille

Laughing.

Hello all!

Last Blog posted was just kind of an update, of me, and of course… my life, what I had been doing and just kinda what was going on. This blog will be similar.

Oh my life… it can be interesting/entertaining to say the least.

Any who… if you are in need of a good “laugh” à Continue reading. Also keep in mind… this is MY BLOG, therefore I BLOG about personal things, anything and everything that is on heart, as all of my readers know, if you don’t like it. As said before… there is a red “X” located at the top of your screen. Thanks. Very Truly Yours, Malorie. ;)

I named this blogged “Laughing” because well I’ve learned to just laugh…literally at a lot of things that have happened in my life the past few months, and not so much because something is necessarily funny, but because it does absolutely NO good to get disappointed. I’ve learned that with God on my side, even though we will experience disappointments in life, we can always get “reappointed”. Trusting God completely and believing that His plan for you is infinitely better than your own will prevent you from being disappointed with God. He is the only One who can help you and truly comfort you, therefore, it is much better to run to him in your pain…. than run from him.

So since the last time I blogged… let’s see. May was actually a very chill month for me, as you all know I had my wisdom teeth pulled, became interested in my new friend…. Jared, attended a women’s encounter, went to Colorado for the first time with my new friend Jared. Pretty eventful thou ehh?

June-  attempted P90X ( I liked it a lot, but just couldn’t stay motivated enough to do it on my own everyday), Went back home to Plainview for Father’s day weekend to spend it with my Papa bear, went to Dallas with Jared (rode on a Harley, there and back), Had heat exhaustion from riding back in 109 degree weather on the way back from Dallas, found out that I am going to have to have my gallbladder removed. also a very pretty eventful month.

(fathers day weekend)

(heading to Dallas)

Annnnd then comes good ole July. Hasn’t every really been my favorite month. Seems like anything and everything BAD that can happen, happens in this gawd forsaken month the past three years of my life. Really, anything… you name it, it’s probably happened this month! Sooo ya…I’ve done a lot of laughing. I’ve also realized that everything changes except God, and letting all changes in our lives upset us won’t keep them for occurring.

1 Peter 5:7 says cast all your cares upon Him, because He cares for you.

Have I been disappointed lately with learning I am going to have gallbladder removed, or that visitation rights re-guarding my child is in the works of trying to force me to become a “every other weekend mom"?? Absolutely!
Was it going to change anything??
Absolutely NOT!
I have chosen to make decisions based on God’s word, which has helped when making the transitions needed with far less turmoil. Did my anger, confusion, and disappointment dissipate right away? No. But if I truly give all my cares over to God, my feelings will calm down and I can be confident that God will continue to work in my life, bringing justice for the injustice done to me. Most transitions take place without our permission. That’s life, but we can choose to adapt. Laugh. Turn to God, seek His face y’all. Don’t let piddly things bring you down. Cast your cares.

Easier said than done? Absolutely! Remember, if you can’t do anything about it, then cast your cares and let God take care of you, because he really does care for you.

Hebrews 12:1 says let us lay aside every weight and sin that easily besets us. Guy’s we’ve got give all that stuff to God and lay it at the feet of Jesus and in exchange pick up some rest, Matthew 11:28-30 “The Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest in your souls. 30 For my yolk is easy bear and the burden I give you is light.”

I love all of you. Thank YOU so much for reading. I hope you guys have a great rest of the weekend and a good week coming up, and if you could, shoot up a few prayers for me. Love you all!

(pictures from this month)

(July 4th)

(That moment when you took another step to moving forward, & you grab your little one & do a little happy dance! Boo-yahhhh! #POUNDit!)

(Night #2. Ok maybe this was never hard for her to sleep in her own bed without mommy. Maybe, it's been the other way around. (sigh) it's fine. I'm fine. Good night my sweet Bonnie girl. <3)

(my sweet girl and I)

Like always, BE BLESSED. BE LOVED.

-malorie lucille  

Mine and Bonnie Kaytes favorite song right now: Yes it's on repeat!

 Listen to--> Give me faith: by Elevation Worship

LYRICS:

I need you to soften my heartTo break me apartI need you to open my eyesTo see that You're shaping my life

Pre-Chorus:All I am,I surrender

Chorus:Give me faith to trust what you sayThat you're good and your love is greatI'm broken inside, I give you my life

Verse 2:I need you to soften my heartTo break me apartI need you pierce through the darkAnd cleanse every part of me
Chorus

Bridge:I may be weakYour spirit strong in meMy flesh may failMy God you never will (repeat)

FREE

well hello there! ;)

I have missed you all tons, I've missed sharing my thoughts, sharing my heart, 

sharing...well, just everything!

Where to start.

(this is going to be lengthy, so have a seat there my friend. and I just got my wisdom teeth pulled, yesterday, So i am on meds. ;) haha) 

I'll start off with my move.

My move to Dalhart.

I LOVE it here in Dalhart & that is just the flat out truth! 

As most of you know, I moved here back at the beginning of Decemeber (2011),

I started working for Wells Fargo January 5th.

Somewhere in the mix, I got back together with my ex of almost 2 years, and as MOST of you know we are no longer together, the only good thing I can say about that brilliant idea of mine is..... 

I can NEVER look back on that whole thing and say I didn't try.

From the time I started seeing/dating Dustin.again

was about mid December, 

I slowly drifted away from the Lord, again.

Stopped going to church. again.

Started seeing myself doing things and making decisions that I use to. again.

Heard numerous times from the Lord, and just turned my cheek. again.

I was planning on moving back home, in October when my lease was up. 

to Plainview. 

gulp. again.

(mind you, I do know this is no ones fault but my own.)

Get my vibe. Yaaa, Nuff said right.

Ok, sooo that's all over with, and I can ONLY move forward. 

Right?

Right! 

& I have, or at least I feel like I have.

I'm back in church, seeking the Lords face, daily.

I've Started doing a daily devotion.

& Just really focusing on my relationship with the Lord, 

and focusing on being the BEST mommy that I can be to my sweet girl Bonnie Kayte, 

goodness that little girl blesses me and my life. 

I do not know what I would do without her.

You know it's so crazy to me, how we let life just draw us away from the right path we are on, I mean seriously just like that, BAM...satan steals our thunder, we start living in such a way that is no good for us, and the crazy thing is we KNOW it's no good but still try and pursue it!! 

What the heck! Like I said up there ^ I heard the Lord speak to me over and over and over about how I needed out, I needed out, but I'd put my finger up and just say.....well, just wait Lord, it will get better, just wait Lord, things are gunna change. Ya, well I was totally wrong, once again...Malorie was trying to make things happen in life on her own time, and trying to make things that seemed good (like my relationship) look like it was a "God" thing. 

WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG!!

I wanted to be seeking the Lord, and that wasn't so much Dustin's heart.

We were running to two separate directions trying to make something out of it. 

and got a BIG. FAT. NOTHING.

So here it is friends. I've thrown in my towel. 

I am so thankful to serve a loving, forgiving, God.

A couple of days before the break up was actually official and let be. haha.

Ummm, I had this awful guilt I was I was caring around, 

it went a little something like this...

(how on earth am I ever going to be forgiven this time, I mean seriously Malorie, you heard from the Lord, NUMEROUS times, turned your cheek and went on about your OWN ways and doings, for what drug on and on for about two years. and all you feel now, is guilty, shame etc.)

Then I heard this brilliant word from this brilliant lady.... and her exact words were,

God doesn't want you to carry guilt around. 

He wants you to repent. 

receive his forgiveness. 

& Go on about your business.

The bible teaches us NOT to be conformed of this world.

easier said than done. but it really can be that easy my friends.

those things listed above, repent, receive, and let go and go about your business.

fair enough. easy enough. 

right?

So I did just that.

The past 5 weeks I've learned that people tend to make this "religion" thing so hard to understand and so hard to grasp, when in all reality it's not about "religion".

Religion is complicated. Jesus is simple.

life isn't meant to be complicated, taking matters in your own hands like Malorie did... 

makes life complicated.

God wants us to enjoy life. 

God wants us to be happy, to laugh, to love, and to stay focused.

We can do it. If I can do it. You can do it.

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So there is what happened in the time frame from my official move back in December, 

till about 4 weeks ago.

Let's see what else haven't I shared...

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Of course Bonnie Kayte was with me for January, February, & March.

We had so much fun in our little apartment together, we had a daily routine, she kept me on my toes, she wanted to eat pasta (our favorite. every night, then I tried to explain to her that mommy can't eat pasta every night because it sticks in places and I have to work out even harder, she didn't really understand, sooo therefore, we had pasta a lot. haha)

 she was my little mini me. I love it. Some nights we would stay up talking for hours, about absolutely nothing, like...her baby doll Patricia, she wasn't listening to her mommy (Bonnie), crazy girl.

& Everyday after school, we'd race from the car to the apartment, 

she won EVERY.DAY!

Then she went with her dad, for the months of April, May and June, and I sure do miss her!

Needless to say, I look forward to every other weekend I have with her.

she is my princess.

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Oh, the last week of March, I started working out.

I did Zumba everyday for the first 3-4 weeks and slowly stopped for some reason.

I do run a mile or more everyday thou. 

I work out my bum, legs, and arms.

I'm not trying to lose weight, 

I just want to be fit and do some toning is all, 

I have never been much of a self motivator, 

but beings that I am on WEEK 5 (whoop whoop)

 of pushing myself

ev.er.y.day! 

I'll go ahead and swallow those words, 

it's tuff, but I always feel so accomplished after a work out. 

I've also found that during this time, I really meditate and talk to the Lord.
 a lot.

it's very relaxing.

& very nice.

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Let's see what else.

I have started attending church regularly, again.

started getting plugged in to Group on friday nights, again.

I am actually attending a Women's Encounter this weekend, 

I'm pretty pumped and excited for that.

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I've met a new friend,
guy friend,
named Jared.

he's pretty special to me.

He let's me talk,
haha & If you know me,
you knooooooow I like to talk.

He listens.

He gives advice.

& He has an amazing heart.

I met him the first weekend of April, so we haven't known each other for that long.

He offered to take me to my appointment yesterday to have all four wisdom teeth pulled,

he is a pretty good nurse, and good picture taker if I do say so myself.

his BEFORE of me.
waiting.
patiently in the waiting room.

 (little sneaky)

haha. and his AFTER of me. 

going to check sprinklers with him, is always fun too!

haha!

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I had started a book awhile back,

like back in Jan. but never finished it...

so I'm working on that....

it's called,

"Your Captivating Heart"

by Stasi Eldredge

"Discover How God's True Love Can Free a Woman's Soul"

very neat book.
i'm learning a lot from it!

*******

I went and watched the movie

"The Lucky One"

this past Sunday.

very good movie!
must see!!!

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and that my friends is a wrap....for now!!

I promise. pinkie promise to do better!!

So until next time,

LOVE YOU ALL!!

&

like always

BE BLESSED. BE LOVED!!!

(and if you would please post your comments on the facebook blogger page, not on here, not everyone knows how to post or view the comments on here!! thank you!!!)

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listen to--> free by: Dara Maclean

listen to the amazing lyrics! love this song!